My Prayer.

I fear You. You are more powerful than all the strength of man and his inventions combined. You are the reason why man exists. You are our Creator. And yet, you are so gentle. You comfort the weak and lonely. You are forgiving even though some of us be undeserving of Your grace. I love you. You have given me so much, even though I gave so little praise. I am ashamed in Your presence, Lord. Because I know that each day I continue to sin. And sometimes I don't realize. And sometimes I do. I ask for your forgiveness, Lord. And I ask for a hand up, not a handout. Because too many times I ask when I know I have not the strength to carry the blessing you have bestowed upon me. When we ask, you always give. Yet many times we do not give thanks. Many times you give and we expect it because we know You are a loving God. But most times, we take Your blessings for granted. And we give empty promises of change knowing that we will continue to be the same in our hearts. And even though You know all that is in us, Lord, you still give us chance after chance. I ask Lord that you guide me through to where I need to be. I no longer wish to lean toward my own understanding of things, because I know I would never be equipped to lead myself to righteousness without You. Us humans are full of wickedness from this world. Each day is a struggle to thwart the temptations of this life. But I know for sure Lord that these temptations are merely cheap thrills. I want something that is good and filling. Only Your love can do that. I know because I simply do not thirst the way I did. And although I have my moments where I miss my past, the present me knows that there is nothing in that life. You have showed me something more, and I do not ever want to lose it. I am happy with what I have, although it be little compared to before. Possession be of little importance nowadays, though. Because before I had what I wanted, but lacked happiness when that's what I truly needed. You make me whole, when all the days of my past I was depressed. I now find joy in the little things. I thank you Lord, because you are changing my life. I know in You I can truly find happiness. All these days I searched for something, anything, only to realize it all meant nothing. You are everything. And I want and need it all.