Abuse.

Smack me.
Throw me down
Into the dirt
Slander my name
Leave me shamed
Tell me how
You'll never do it again.
Leave me cold
Come back
Because I beg.
I can't be without you.
I am your dog.
I am your slave.
You're the one habit I can't quit.
But I'm so sick of it.
I feel you
Inside me
I feel vile.
I can't smile.
I can't laugh.
You drained my life.
I am nothing.
You killed me.
Dug a hole
And buried me.
I crawled from the grave
And saw you standing there.
Silly me.
I thought I'd get away.
You pushed me back
Into darkness.
I slept so long.
Then I came back.
I was angry.
I turned into you.
Black and lifeless.
Fighting
For what?
I didn't know.
But I knew I had to.
It brought me here.
Far from you.
Yet you remained
Inside me
My thoughts
My dreams
My nightmares.
My desires
Were full of YOU.
But I knew
You were no good.
But I had to have you.
Funny how addictions work.
Started simple enough.
I began to lean on you.
Then you carried me
Into oblivion.
I couldn't stop
This hellish ride
Even if I wanted to.
And that's exactly
What you wanted.