The Darkness In Me

I let you carry me on your wave,
When I didn't even know how to swim.
Foolishly I thought I was safe.
You brought me to stormy waters.
You cast me from your boat
With no life preserver.
You tricked me with promises
Of my hearts deepest desires.
But when I got far enough out to sea
I realized that no happiness dwelled there.
Only cold dampness
That was sure to kill any life within me.
Once alone and drifting,
Not knowing if I'd make it,
I called for a savior, anybody really.
But nobody came,
Only a spirit.
It was Him.
Only a spirit,
Yet He began to work on me,
Touching places that I did not see, hear, or even feel.
Showing me how dark my desires truly were,
Sinful even.
Showing me how my own iniquity
Brought me out to the middle of nowhere
Where there was no refuge
Where you planned to destroy me.
I looked into your face
Yet I did not see your true intent.
How foolish of me
To fall into the trap that you laid
Based upon my own flaws!
I suppose I didn't know myself.
I suppose I wasn't strong enough.
I suppose I wasn't wise enough.
And it's all true.
Only He could have saved me from this disaster
Called myself.